Intermittent Craziness

Happy New (Financial) Year!

Six months ago I was saying how I hoped the New Year would be better than the last one.  Let's face it...2010 pretty much sucked.  So far 2011 hasn't been much better, with Joe's dad dying in January, issues at work, my cycles going weird on me and then developing appendicitis!  But I was thinking last night, when I said I hoped the new year would be better, I didn't say which new year...So maybe 1 July is the turning point...

'Offspring' on Wednesday was so close to home it was almost painful.  Watching Bille's reaction when she had to listen to someone talking about how much they loved their baby but how they hadn't known what to do...but at least "she hasn't died" and trying to hold it together, or sitting it a cafe where everyone around you seems to have babies...painful!

Offspring - Season 2, Ep 10

In those situations I've always felt a 'pull' between the etiquette of sitting there and continuing to socialise and wanting to run far, far away to a place where there are likely to be no children...like a brothel, for example! (just kidding).  Of course, most of the time I do a good impression of being a functional, well-balanced human being...but sometimes the "crazy" comes out.  The other day at work, the Managing Director was talking to one of the partners about his wife's birth story a few steps away from my desk - how she'd had to have a caesarean etc...and I found myself humming so I didn't have to listen to it, not loudly mind you, just under my breath so I didn't hear the conversation but...Humming!  I don't think I've hummed to drown someone out since I was about 7 years old!  I'm surprised I didn't put my fingers in my ears and start singing "la la la la la, I can't hear you"!  This is not the behaviour of a mature, sane adult.  Anyway, I guess the facade is going to slip sometimes...